Ogurenaii~~~

Ahh.. tired. Yesterday morning, we got back to the hometown for Granny is already at home. Then Dad and I went for home and reach here at 10 p.m, with Mom and the sisters still at Granny's. Whew.. And by the time I wrote this, I just finished attending course for my licensing. 8 hours!! Really tiring and yea, boring. But I'll give whatever it takes to get my bike license, yea!! Haha.. Whatever it takes. And now I'm all alone, waiting for the whole family but me, to get back here. :D

Soundtrack - Ize of The World by The Strokes

Is this it? The closing act?

This is it. Lina knows the truth, the complicated and hard one for me. She's really, if i can say so, down with this. She mentioned about staying away from me and forgetting me and all the times we spent together commenting, chatting, all those bulletins' comments, all, she's going to drop it. Shouldn't blame her because i know people hate once-had-to-be-good moments that are now gone. Ah, i don't know what i'm saying. Nevermind. In the other hand, Qilla, in her offline messages, says that she feels uncomfortable with all that happened lately between us. Between 3 of us. She doesn't want to get involved between me and Lina anymore. From the way she says, I can figure out that she thinks she has bothered, or interrupted my love-friendship with Lina, and she's going to let me start with her (Lina). But yea, Life ain't chess. We just can't take back our moves when we think that it'll bring us to lose. Now, I'm all alone.

The Puppeteer tried to keep all his important puppets stay balanced,
assuring they were in their best condition,
in a puppet show.
But he helplessly broke the strings,
and they are all gone.
Away from him.
And the lights out,
the stage has fallen,
the show has ended,
he is now left alone,
with no audiens.
Sadly, he realized,
that he is a puppet, too,
of his own play.

Lina, am I losing you?

Lina, after all that happened, i still hope we can be good frends and i don't want u to stay away from me. Reading ur coded post has made me feel like losing u. How do it feels when we lose someone special to us? Someone who really care about us? Someone that's so important to us? I don't want to know what it feels. I don't want to lose u. Lina, all the times we've been together, means much for me. Knowing u is one of the best thing ever happened in my lifetime. Truly, don't turn ur back to me.

Pasca Revealing

Ouh, 'great'. Mary knows about Swee for she has read my comments on Myspace. And she seems so angry, no, envy with that. I read her blog and she's extremely (if i can say so) anti with Swee. Ahh.. I don't deserve all this. I'm not even worth-fighting and no one should be mad or envy with anyone I like. Ahh.. truly confusing me. It's not that i don't appreciate that but Mary, u don't have to be like that for this good friend of yours. Anyway, Swee and I have back to normal except for now, we've known what we feel toward each other. Just let it be.

Today Puppet Show

Wuhuu.. it's all clear between me and Qilla. Quite relieved now. And i'll just let the rest to be what i call 'naturally-developed', or in simple language, wait and see. Ha.

Whew, Dad has registered me for motor licensing. Haha.. quite nervous about that but still i'm looking forward to have my riding license. It's a reward for my Straight A's result which i was ungrateful and feel nothing excited about that before. But now i know what the result can give to me. Money, fame, and even the license. Haha.. but no new motorbike. Ahh..

Happy birthday, Mr. Monkey

Ouh, almost forgotten about this little insignificant thing. I was born on this date, 16 years ago in Hospital Besar Kemaman. I just want to wish myself, Happy Birthday, Mr. Monkey.

*Got 4 wishes today.
1. A stranger (sorry, but who is he?)
2. Qilla
3. Haslina
4. Hazirah

Thanks for remembering, or at least, wishing me.
I didn't expect to get that and yet y'all have made
me thinking that there are still few people who appreciate me.
Arigatou gozaimasu.

The Truth Revealed

Qilla wrote:

"dear adi...
i know yg u try larikn dri dr i...
so do i..
but smpai ble kn??
here the truth...
i do hve tht 'feeling' t0ward u...
the way u talkin to me, i really like it..
ur thinkin ..jz same wif me..
i damn like it
...
since u ckp psl u suke gurl tu..
i twu u x suke kt i...
n,
i rse mmg ptt la i tarik dri...
kn?
wat pe kte nk pegi kt org yg xsuke kt kiter..
tol x?
papepun,
i sentiase d0akn u....
hepi n berjye all the time..

hmm...
be the best among the best k..
assalamualaikum
bye..
happy birthday..."

U're wrong then. I like u. And yea, i like her, too. I know it shouldn't have happened like this but both of u have been so nice to me.
Again, the same question, 'What should i do?'

Just a puppet on a lonely string

Got up at 3 in the morning and then i found the untold truth. The one i care about has some truth to tell me but she doubt to do so. It's bcause she doesn't want to mess up things for i have another good friend tht expects more than just friend. I don't wanna hurt any of them but i know that's simply hard for me. Should i just wait for them to tell me the truth (which i can clearly guess) or should i just ask them? It's really burdening me because they are so important to me. Huu...

Received phone call from an uncle told us bout our sick granny that's being warded.
Gonna visit her today in Dungun and praying that she'll be just okay.

Swallowed by the sea of uncertainty

Whew.. it's hard for me for these few days. Knowing an unexpected truth is just making me outta my mind. Shock, happy, afraid, everything, blends in the same bowl. I don't know how to react to this for i've never experienced it. Deciding is simply important yet too hard for me. There's more than one party i have to keep their feelings. What do they expect from me? No idea. Sorry if anyone's offended in this case but it's really confusing me.

I'm the puppeteer and my life is the puppet,
Yet i've broken the strings and everything's lost n floating,
Unreachable, unexpectable.

Bla bla bla

Okay. Still a fresh leaf i am. Way to go, dude! I'll try, no, I'll give my best to work on this blog at the optimum level (ckp per tu weyh?). Nehh~~~ I'll make sure that this blog ain't just another rubbish-filled site. It's about me n i'll do everything to get myself contented. At last, I have my own campaigns site. Haha.. yea, I love working on campaigns. Not like those elections, but campaigns on my opinion (i don't know the rite word to describe it), ah, whatever. Ding!

Kick-off!!

Whow~~~ Okay. This is my first post ever. Let's start with, 'Why do I start blogging?'. I start blogging because i love expressing my feelings (haha), or my mind's words which i refer as 'The Confessions'. I find blogging is the best way for me to do such thing. I'll be posting about what i feel, or my daily life, or anything that i want to say. You may find my posts are boring, hard to understand, or simply rubbish. And I don't give a damn to it. I'll be using fully-English lingua franca(?), or just the suitable words to say anything in my mind. Ok, whatever. I wanna thank to someone who moved me to go blogging, she is, oh, let's just keep it for myself. Ok, keep working, dude! Haha..